Feel into your heart
Why is it so scary to go into the heart? It is the place where feeling meets with life. It’s the source of life. Yet many in my observation have the eyes wondering; left, right, up, down, because the mind has a story ready to move past the feeling. What has been perceived as protection may be the very thing blocking the opportunity to experience life more liberated, more connected. To actually feel safety and love. The way I can witness this is because I have been on these paths. One thing I know for sure between having my son and the years leading to now (six years) I had no place to run no more. What a GIFT truly.
I learnt early on that love was conditional and acceptance was through perfection. That there was a ceiling on how much I was allowed to express love and speaking truth. This is all perfect by the way, it truly is what we come here for. We choose the exact relationships and lineages to be apart of to bring us back to our hearts. The capacity of everyone is the exact amount for our souls correction. Along the way through these experiences body learns to lean towards safety and belonging over truth. At such a young age the importance is surviving in the presence of our carers.
What came form the moment my son was two that’s truly when I began to experience this deeper. The mentors reflecting things that had me breakdown in relief that I can let this go now. It was the beginning. Maybe it hasn’t come to you yet because its buried in what seems like protection. You can let go now too. By getting curious, visiting that part of you and FEELING what is underneath the costume of protection; because you are safe now. You have life in you. Can you hear the beat in your body like the rhythm of a drum? Awakening cells and connected to spirit. That is all happening for you. Your breath moving life force energy through you, bringing it deeper into every energy centre. Activating more life and abundance to you if you choose. By this one thing…. to FEEL.
Every age my son has been has reflected that of me. Age four was my sweetheart. It was one of the most significant years I remember. For me at four a time I had never felt more loved for being Linda and genuinely seen for being who I was. That experience has forever stayed with me. It wasn’t in a familiar place not even in Australia. It was there that four year old me dreamt and wished things I didn’t realise stemed from there. Until I felt every part of what was being reflected.
I was recently led into a meditation that moved an unexpected depth of emotion. This lead to a deeper curiosity. I found the big safety block. So profound that I want to extend this to you;
Ask yourself honestly what is the biggest block you are facing right now? When did you feel it wasn’t ok to be your whole self? Breathe into your heart. Your mind is going to want to take you away. Keep your eyes closed and stay in your body. What was the home you were in? How old were you? What was the smell or significant colours you remember? Stay with yourself, tell her “I’m here, you are safe.” Where in your body can you feel the discomfort? Scan your body up and down. Once you see it, start to pull it out of your body with your hands like you would from a blocked drain. Can you see who it came from? If so send it back with love to them if not return it to mother earth. Bring up a white light from the soles of your feet up to your heart and a golden light from your crown to your heart.
Allow yourself to sit with this experience and feel into the transcendence state with the gold and white light flowing like current through your body. Breathe safety and love back into body.
Enviroments that couldn’t hold you is where dimming your light became a priority. Safety over being alive. Being alive is having an electric current run through your veins where everything is available to you. Not just the rainbows but also grief, joy, loss, elation and abundance. All of it. A body that is alive can hold it all. Come back to this practice when you feel you need. Each time you may just uncover a deeper layer to bring life force back into your body. With that comes a greater expansion every time.